screaming turtle: 2002/3

SCREAMING TURTLE:  IN PINK ALABASTER

It took me about a year to make this, but helped keep my mind off the pain, and helped give me some help with hope.  This horrible pain, and the bump in back of my Achilles tendons in both feet, and the enlarged tendons in the feet that cause so much pain will subside eventually to a tolerable level.  this was a bad time.  It was real torture.  I was wondering if it could be classified as torture, after all, it was man-made damage by a drug company and complicit FDA and poor labeling of the drug and lack of information in the patient handout on delayed reactions being so bad and leading to so much system-wide damage...... torture, I was screaming in pain all the time inside, crying to the surgeon's office for more pain relief... at that time they did not give me pain medication.  ???  They were in denial that a PHARMACEUTICAL could give so much pain?  WTH ???
This was published in Vol. 20 Number 2 2006 Journal of Pain and Palliative Care Pharmacotherapy pgs 78 and 79 that pain doctors nationally see.  That gave me some satisfaction but the article did not say it was from the antibiotic that Johnson and Johnson makes.  they should stick to band aids only.  evil bastards.  Oh yes, wouldn't you be angry too?  !  Again, I say that the act of doing art that gets out the anger and focuses it on creating something temporarily relieves some of the pain, at least if you can do the activity sitting down, or in a position that does not add stress to wherever your pain is.  Finding a way to express what can't be put into words is important to one's health; physical and mental when going through very bad times.  You don't have to have special skills with stone carving, you can just use some paints or crayons and newsprint if you are stuck home in pain and bored..... important while experiencing such stress to 'let it out' somehow for small bits of time intermittently throughout the day.  Maybe I should write an e-book on 'tips for surviving horrible pain that lasts a long time' .   First tip: don't count on your siblings for understanding!  Unconsciously they resent the attention you may foster.  Many families have plenty of dysfunction, and when suffering, just count on your real friends.  (Tip number two)    1/18/2014